Take Care

Actually, I know the place where my last dream of him. The pathway was the one I'm always walking to get inside our church coming from our dressing room. And we were wearing my choir's uniform (0_0) while Dream and I were walking while holding my hand (but even when he was just beside me, I couldn't see his face.. just the part where his lips is, so I know, that we're both happy at that time).

After our this coming Thank's Giving Day, my family is planning to transfer to another locale and it's far away from our current -and my parents doesn't have any plans of coming back. It makes me so sad because I feel that my only connection to Dream will be gone... -no, it is my only connection since it is the only place that I know in my waking world.

Bakit kasi puro metaphor ka Dream? Sa bagay, what if I saw the real you (if ever you're a real person), Dream sa panaginip? I'm positive, I'll just wonder and just wait for you. Well, siguro ganun talaga. You know, kung totoong tao ka and you would like me or court me or something, I would choose you over a dozen Siwon or Sherlock Holmes :p And I would help you in anything you want para makabawi naman sayo.

Honestly, I would like to have a dream of you again. Because sa panaginip lang tayo nagkakasama. Sa totoo lang, hindi naman kita makakalimutan e T-T

you make me sad :(

Bad Night

Last Friday, I arrived at our subdv's entrance at around 1:30 am. I then walked towards and passed the 2nd guard house. After a while, I heard a bike's noise and turned my head a bit to where I heard it. I saw it's lower part and it was a pedal and a guy's legs. I ignored it. But I know it passed me. A little while has passed, and I saw a guy on a bike going my opposite direction. It was him. I knew it was the guy since we were the only ones on the road. I looked at him at a glance: He was a boy - a teenager, chubby or medium build, brown skin and - I must say, has an innocent look. We had a little big distance to each other. I ignored. I didn't observe him more (I used to observe more). 

In just a matter of a few seconds, I felt that someone has grabbed my right breast. To my surprise, I just screamed! It was a grip, I looked and it was from the boy on the bike. My mind were filled with thoughts: was that a perverted act or was that supposed to be a robbery since I am obviously carrying a laptop? You see, I change how I hold my laptop bag: I hold it in my left, in my right or hug it when my arms are tired from its weight. I want to run after him. For what? what if he has a group or something - waiting for him. But I screamed... wait, what if the guard didn't hear me? I don't want my mind to just run some thoughts. All I was feeling was my right hand turning into a fist and my rage: wanting to make him pay. So I ran after him as I was calling out our guard to stop the boy in a bike.

The guard also didn't caught him. I told my story. My voice was a bit shaking. I don't know if I was scared or just angry. It might be the combination of both. Suddenly, there was so many guys in scooters. Now, this intrigued me. Where did they came from? What's up with their numbers? And why are they all in partner? I didn't think anything.. I just have to go home...

So that's how I'm like when I'm in this situation.

I didn't tell my parents right away. It was midnight, and I don't want them to worry.... and beside, they will be more strict on me =_=

When I told them, all I see was their worried face - no scolding, surprisingly. We went to the Baranggay and made a blotter. But report is supposed to be done within an hour range after the incident happen for them to take action. So, lesson learned: report to your parents immediately. It will not be a bother, it will be a bother when it will be too late.

I don't hate the night, I still like it. I still like the darkness and the light that comes with it...BUT I have to be careful what lurks in it.

If I didn't shut down my ability to observe more I wouldn't lose analyzing fast and predicting what might happen. I shouldn't. After all, I could always explain.

arrgh! I'm bored! my mind's going rotten! I want to be challenged! lemme outta here!! >_<